1.7

You know this is probably very bad.
Its July already like wtsss?
4 months left and I just handed up a rather blank chemistry paper back (SORRY IM TRYING HARD NOT TO CURSE LIKE I DID DURING THE PAPER)
And that wasn't the only paper that went WRONG as well.
So though its over i'm not relieved at all. Damn.
Cause im feeling pretty screwed. Like hearing how my cousin just failed 4 at her A's and now in poly is just terrifying. TERRIFYING.
I KEEP PROMISING ID BUCKUPBUCKUP BUT I JUST FUCKUPFUCKUP (sorry this one nc16)
Crap lehz boo hoo. NVM GOT TERM 3.
Even though its been 6 terms and still...

And now thanks to this idk whether to join NSSCC.
Like wts training at Yishun and School for the next 3-4 weeks.
Im not going to put my ass on the line for some climbing competition. Cause there aint room for such bullshit left for prelims!!!
Furthermore, i made promises. To my parents, my teachers, MYSELF. NO MORE TRAINING.
It'll just sap every bit of wdv juice is in me. And prelims will be a repeat telecast. Which we all know, repeat telecast suck... ok.
NO NO JUNE WAS IT ID HAD TO STOP. Id probably put philip off a lil but i really cant help it tho he put me in for it. Like i said im not going to give this up without a good fight. And if climbings going to be in the way it would be too hard for me to push it aside.
Dilemmas dilemmas. Reduced training or forgo the whole comp...
Sorry im being an excessively whiney bitch...
But I really don't think i can handle it D:

BAD.
Should really just get everything off my mind to make most of the time left.
Yes yes.



and june is over... :\