30.1

it's 2.31
i'm so tired.

i can't explain my actions nowadays.
i always seem to do things that i can't find a reason for.
like this blog.
what's the point of this anyway?
1, 2 readers perhaps?
and not letting go of the postings.
i'm terribly exhausted.

subjects constantly speed through my mind.
most,
irrelevant.

i really should be glad to be where i am.
i really should be glad to know more people.
i'm not.
i need someone to wake me up.
from this mess i single handedly brought to be.

i have to start enjoying this new environment,
and accept things like they're meant to be.



.
You're someone else's lady
So sad without you darlin'
The gods of love
Can't help me now...
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Heaven Help Me
Deon Estus